Hi all, so once again it has been ages since i have blogged.
I really need to do more of this on the regular. First of all i thought i would make this a general, how boring is the life of shan post. So lately exam pressure has been doing my head in.
The threat of possibly not going on exchange because the stupid psych people wont get back to me and it keeps getting later and later.
I had an awesome day with an old friend today, filled with lots of eating, cus thats what wogs do best.
I also keep on praying that time will pass quicker than it does, but for what reason, i don't know what the heck i am waiting for...
I want to scream and run around in circles until i fall over dizzily because i can't explain or comprehend this mixture of feelings i feel all of the time.
I can never decide whether i want to be here or there.
I never know where to look for what i am looking for because i think that i won't find when i look anyways.
I keep expecting there to be a golden pot at the end of the rainbow, and all i find is crap.
One day i will probably look back on all of this and laugh, although i am dreading the day it comes.
I am constantly surrounded by people, and still i feel like i don't belong, perhaps i never will.
regretfully, this has not been a happy blog, but a realisation of true things. sadly life never is, is it?
i wanted to post this picture, because to me this place is perfect, it would be the tree i would lie under all day, it would be the field i would love to run through, it would be the sky i would love to absorb...
shan
